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'The worst is over now And we can breathe again I wanna hold you high and steal my pain away There's so much left to learn And no one left to fight I wanna hold you high and steal your pain' (c) Seether & Amy Lee
So much has happened since my last entry. I had a meeting with my big boss - it went better than to be expected and I feel so much more assured about everything. No longer am I doubting my decision about coming forward. I know I did it sticking to my convictions and staying true to myself.
A few other things have happened. I guess I have spoken briefly about my parents and that they are divorced. They have been separated for 10 and half years now. I think when it all happened, I changed. I became incredibly sensitive. Mind you, I was 12 years old when everything happened and I remember it all. It affected me a great deal and it made up part of who I am today. It instilled big values into myself.
Upon reflection, both of my parents did some things that I am sure that they are not proud of. Before the separation, I was a Daddy's Girl. In a huge way - when he told me he was leaving, it literally was like my entire world crashed. It was like I heard about it happening, but thought it could never happen to me. And when it did - I didn't know what to say, react or act. The transition period was the most difficult, my sister and I fought constantly and there was a constant power struggle between my parents for us.
My dad moved on really quick - and depending on who you spoke to, he wasn't entirely faithful to my mother (or he was and just bided his time). Either way, this has no baring ANYWAY. On the phone though - he said he had been with his partner (now wife), for 12 years.
Do the math.
It's funny how still so much time has passed yet something so small and really doesn't matter - can hurt. Maybe it's just me and I am sensitive about something that has no baring.
I feel silly admitting something like this. And I even felt silly explaining it to C.
Sometimes you just can't escape that little kid inside... Current Location: Home Current Mood: & reflective Current Music: Good Luck - Basement Jaxx (ft. Lisa Kekula)
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Hello! My name is (you can use your real name or the name you want to be referred to as) : Elya
My age is: 28
I live in (state or country if not in the US): Italy
My relationship status is (married, single, taken, etc.): married
Tell us a little bit about your home, is it a condo, apt, house, mobile home, yurt,etc : my home is a condo.
My decorating style is : It is so difficult to determine it. J In this flat had been living my husband parents and now we have a mix of things that have nothing uniting them. So we have to do much to make the flat better. I like country style and I hope to work in this way.
How many children and/or pets: a little son
Something domestic I could use help with: Cleaning
My favorite "guilty pleasure" is: Painting. I am able to do it 24 hours a day J
My favorite domestic activity is: cooking
My least favorite domestic chore is: picking in washing and all concerned with this process
I found this community through (referral from member, community promo, random, etc.): by chance. I like the name of this community and the way it is done, and also happy to have this opportunity to not to forget absolutely my English.
Please list any special talents or interests: decoupage, painting wooden things in Russian style, I am also fond of making photos
It's me and amore mio

Tags: membership questionnaire Current Mood: awake
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With Clarion coming up, I find it increasingly hard to write. All of my fellow Clarionites, so far as I can tell, are working busily on other projects... But me? I look at it and go, "Well, I can't sell the novels I wrote before Clarion, so clearly I'm not doing it correctly as it is. So anything I write pre-Clarion will need to be re-written from the guts up come the end of Clarion, which seems like work. Why not just start fresh?"
So I haven't been writing anything, just waiting around for the blessed touch of Clarion to magically make me a good writer. This is odd, since I've almost always got two or three projects bubbling somewhere.
But the weirder thing is that it's making it a little harder to combat the seasonal depression this time 'round. As it turns out, when I feel bad about life, retreating into the imaginary world I'm constructing for a short story/novel and tinker-toying with concepts is a good way to forget my blues. I'm never happier than when I'm creating. And having no projects to tuck myself into is turning out to be a little odd, because I can't suddenly ask myself, "Oh, wait, how in hell could a dragon survive as a predator when it would have to eat so much that it would strip the surrounding countryside?" and then devise a Very Clever Answer to that for my latest botched book.
Fortunately, I've realized this, so I'm now kicking around ideas for my next novel idea-cum-short-story, and retreating fairly heavily into that. But it's very odd not to be taking those concepts and immediately stringing them down to paper. But I figure I'm clearly not writing well right now, so why try to put more wounded words to paper where I'll eventually just have to put them out of their misery anyway?
(Under normal circumstances I'd just revise an old novel, but lemme tell ya - when your brain is flooding you with artificial senses of self-worth, the last thing you want to do is go look at your own writing. You might as well just shove rusty razor blades up your colon and be done with it.)
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I came across this story in my internet wanderings and thought people might like a little info on foot pain. "The American Academy of Orthopaedic Surgeons (AAOS) recently released a statement on plantar fasciitis—muscle tightness that results in pain in the foot and heel—and noted the most effective means of addressing it, including massage.Plantar fasciitis is an overuse injury affecting the fasciia that supports the arch, and is one of the most frequently seen conditions by foot and ankle orthopaedic surgeons, noted an AAOS press release.“This is a very common problem in the adult population,” said Steven Ross, M.D., clinical professor in the Department of Orthopaedic Surgery at the University of California, Irvine, and president of the American Orthopaedic Foot and Ankle Society (AOFAS). “This repetitive strain injury affects all walks of life, people both very active and even sedentary, but may most frequently be seen in middle-aged, overweight women.”The AAAOS noted that patients living with plantar fasciitis have treatment options including: • Non-operative treatment: Foot and toe exercises, massage techniques, stretching and cortisone injections. • Partial plantar fasciectomy: A surgical procedure that takes the strain out of the fasciia so that it heals but transfers the strain to other areas of the foot. • Shockwave therapy: Machine-induced electrical therapy that stimulates new tissue formation. • Gastrocnemius recession: A more controversial, newer procedure that correlates the pain in the plantar fasciia to tightness in the calf. The surgery releases the calf tightness, aiming to decrease the strain in the fasciia. “Each treatment option has its pros and cons,” Ross noted. “But the fact is that this problem just heals itself with time, exercise and patience. We live in a ‘now’ society, where people want the instant fix. In the case of plantar fasciitis, that is just not the best option.” Approximately 90 percent of plantar fasciitis conditions improve with exercises or non-operative techniques over a nine-month span, Ross said." Damn diagnosis, too often our system does not distinguish between the various causes of pain. Plantar fasciitis, is often over diagnosed. There are many different causes of foot pain, however; GPs will frequently call any pain of the bottom of the foot plantar fasciitis. There are some excellent docs out there who go the extra mile and are very adroit at orthopedic assessment, referring their patient quickly to the appropriate specialist. Unfortunately they seem to be more th exception than the rule. Pain in the bottom arch and heel of the foot is fairly common for many people, but it does not always stem from contracted fascia. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Plantar_fasciitisA quick and easy fix is to check the trigger points which can provide relief... http://www.triggerpointbook.com/plantarf.htmand for the most complete information on the possible myofascial trigger point components of foot pain check out the podiatrists guide to trigger points.. http://www.latrobe.edu.au/podiatry/myofasc/cover.htmlWell thats all for now Tags: massage
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