It's finally happened. My computer crashed. Around 4AM last night, my computer started to get really, really slow and then the screen just turned black. When I booted it back up, it showed something like: We are sorry for the inconvienience, but windows did not start up correctly. Then it had several options like safe mode, regular mode, and something else. I tried all of them, but nothing happened. All thanks to that fucking worm virus and spyware problems that I tried to get rid of, but I couldn't. I Lost everything. Photoshop, my new nine inch nails album that northstar provided a link to, my thousands of mp3s, limewire, my latest drawings, my photoshop and paint shop brushes, documents... everything. I am so pissed.

I feel really bad about this too, because my friend blackstorm wanted me to make a card with a heart and a message on it for her brother's present or something and it crashed right when i was in the middle of it. I feel even worse that it had to happen on the day before my grandpa finally got to celebrate his 87th birthday now that Grandma was doing a bit better a week later.

I swear... something or someone is bound to make me miserable and live in hell. Right now I've barely got over a panic attack thinking what I should do about this and dreading the cost of repairs. Most of all, I dread dealing with my dad.

Please pray that he won't go apeshit on me tomorrow. I'm on my period, I'm mentally unstable, and I just can't deal with anything right now. Please pray that he'll help me deal with this in a civilized supportive manner and not yelling at me about finances. Hell, I even told him that i'd pay 50 out of my own pocket, sacrificing the last part of a 100.00 bill i had put away from gambling.

I'm so sick to my stomach at the moment. I just wish that things like this don't have to happen at the worst possible times. Life is so cruel to me.

When will it ever get better?

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