Sundays are always a dull day for me. I can't really go anywhere, the transit is closed, the stores are closed, the library closes early in the winter and spring, closed all day in the summer, and I don't drink. Not to mention there's not much internet activity either.

At least it's not a complete waste of time. Right now my apartment is a complete disaster. If my landlord saw the mess, she'd probably kick me out by now. The main problem is, too much stuff and no storage space. No matter how much I get rid of- 50 garbage bags of stuff in the past year or so, I still have cramped quarters.

So now I'm going through things and picking stuff up again. I've been washing dishes, putting away laundry from last week that I never bothered to put away, and threw the dirty clothes into the hamper for washing later tonight. I took out the trash, but I intend to take out more, taking care of the recycling stuff that's been crowding my apartment tomorrow. I also want to go through my bins, papers, and almost everything and just get rid of it.

Living here for 3 years just drove me insane enough to the point where I want to scream. Mostly the environment, but also the cramped quarters and the fact I don't have much room for stuff. It will be a blessing if I ever get out of here to a better place. I don't recommend Mainview to anybody, especially my little stepsister who suffers more emotional problems than me.

But still, my mind lingers to what may happen 3 years from now and I get the feeling that it will be a lot happening. Moving for one- that may happen between '08-'09. I may be either volunteering or working in a book shop part time. I may finally know what to do for a care and start thinking about college- I'm close to that now since I have at least 5 options spread out in front of me. I could also marry, but I don't see that happening because I don't have a boyfriend and there's no indication of anyone being actually interested in me. I still fantasize about that dream, but I numbed the desire. What's the point of desiring things that you can't have?

Well back to cleaning. At this rate if my brain never shuts up, i might not finish my projects.

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