It's finally happened. My computer crashed. Around 4AM last night, my computer started to get really, really slow and then the screen just turned black. When I booted it back up, it showed something like: We are sorry for the inconvienience, but windows did not start up correctly. Then it had several options like safe mode, regular mode, and something else. I tried all of them, but nothing happened. All thanks to that fucking worm virus and spyware problems that I tried to get rid of, but I couldn't. I Lost everything. Photoshop, my new nine inch nails album that northstar provided a link to, my thousands of mp3s, limewire, my latest drawings, my photoshop and paint shop brushes, documents... everything. I am so pissed.

I feel really bad about this too, because my friend blackstorm wanted me to make a card with a heart and a message on it for her brother's present or something and it crashed right when i was in the middle of it. I feel even worse that it had to happen on the day before my grandpa finally got to celebrate his 87th birthday now that Grandma was doing a bit better a week later.

I swear... something or someone is bound to make me miserable and live in hell. Right now I've barely got over a panic attack thinking what I should do about this and dreading the cost of repairs. Most of all, I dread dealing with my dad.

Please pray that he won't go apeshit on me tomorrow. I'm on my period, I'm mentally unstable, and I just can't deal with anything right now. Please pray that he'll help me deal with this in a civilized supportive manner and not yelling at me about finances. Hell, I even told him that i'd pay 50 out of my own pocket, sacrificing the last part of a 100.00 bill i had put away from gambling.

I'm so sick to my stomach at the moment. I just wish that things like this don't have to happen at the worst possible times. Life is so cruel to me.

When will it ever get better?

Current Mood: crushed

Well, the computer thing went smoother than I had expected. My dad did get a little excited about this and was like "damn you" at first, but he accepted it. I appreciate the fact that he helped me take the computer to Computer Corner so I can have all the data wiped out and reformatted. The reason I chose this rather than to have them get rid of the viruses/spyware and leave the other files is that I have no idea what exactly was infecting my computer and some of the stuff i may have downloaded in the past may be an infection. I really don't know. Plus doing it that way will also cost me more money at 99.00.

The damage done for me is about 79. I already deposited 30.00 out of my own pocket and the rest of it will come from the bank. There is one plus side to all this despite the losses of everything, including artwork is that I basically get a new PC. For less. It's fine with me because I'm no where near ready for vista yet and I don't want to deal with replacing my camera, printer, and my 7 year old scanner. I should have it back by next friday.

In the meantime, I have memory trouble with my old computer so I'm doing everything I can to free up space. The first thing I did was to get rid of AVG, which is a bad memory hogger at 20 MB or so. Plus it was outdated. I may also get rid of ad aware CS since I can no longer update that program but keep spybot and spyware doctor.

But I have a question with some programs:

1. what is Broad Jump Client Foundation? Is it important for something? Or should I delete it?

2. What is C-Media 3D audio? Do I need that program? What is it foor? Can I get rid of it?

3. What is viewpoint? Some of it appears to be a cross between spyware and media. should I do away with that?

Please help me! thank you.

Current Mood: confused