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midnight21
04 October 2011 @ 03:58 pm
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My journal is friends only due to dealing with a very stressful life.   If you'd still like to add me as a friend then please leave a comment down below and I'll be more than happy to add you back. Nice to meet you!

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Lisa
 
 
midnight21
19 August 2016 @ 07:15 pm
1. What’s your favorite way to stay cool in late summer?
I was in florida this summer so I stayed cool by staying in the house which has central air conditioning and spent a lot of time in the pool.

2. Are you ready for autumn yet?
Absolutely! I'm done with this heat and humidity. I'm also looking forward to lower electric bills too.

3. What do you have left to do before summer ends?
Nothing really. However, I would like to get some artwork done and I need a new pair of running shoes...

4. Has it been a good summer for you?
It was okay but it wasn't great. I wish we could have gone out and done things more instead of just sitting around at home in Florida...  At least I went swimming pretty much every day, which is a rarity for me.

5. Have you started Christmas shopping yet?
Nope, though I am putting some money aside for it already. I don't even know what I want this year yet either because the only thing I want right now is for my life to turn around and change for the better... which is something only God can give according to his will.
 
 
midnight21
08 August 2016 @ 05:26 pm
Ulta  
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I went to Ulta's grand opening today and one of the employees told me that it was extremely busy this morning and many cosmetics were picked over already, which is no surprise to me. Do I really blame the women of Oshkosh for this? No. We were always stuck having to go to Walmart, Target, Shopko, CVS, and Wallgreens for drugstore brands and if we wanted the more expensive brands such as too faced, smashbox, bobbi brown, lancome, Lorac, urban decay and so many others, then we'll have to go to Appleton.  That's the trouble. All the stores I actually like are in Appleton and it's just so hard for me to get there without a car. At least Ulta just opened up here, which makes things somewhat easier for those who live in a city that refuses to grow in business.

After browsing around the store for at least an hour, I walked out with:
Too Faced Natural Eyes eyeshadow
Nyx XXL mascara
Makeup Revolution eyeshadow Iconic 1 which is basically a cheap dupe for UD Naked
Too Faced Semi Sweet chocolate Bar.
ULTA glitter eye top coat

I almost bought too faced bon bons and UD naked 2 but I kinda passed both palettes up because they had shades I wasn't quite in love with. If I'm going to spend 30-50.00 a pop on eyeshadow, I better get something that I really like. I felt myself drawn to that semi sweet chocolate bar so I grabbed that and the natural eye shadow to start out with. Next time I WILL get UD naked 3. I really wanted to get that today but that was out of stock. Oh well. Hopefully I will have better luck next time...
 
 
midnight21
28 May 2016 @ 10:02 pm
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Today David was kind enough to take me on a tour through Ripon Middle School for the last time before it gets torn down in September. If you click on the link below, you will see various hallways, some classrooms, a girl's bathroom the gym, the cafeteria and a few other rooms. Rumor has it that the school janitor hung himself in the closet of the band room and his ghost had haunted the school ever since. I did a little investigating on my own for a brief time and while I did sense something in the band room, I felt even more ghostly energy upstairs and I felt my stomach twist and knot. Still, I ignored it and kept walking through the school. Sadly I didn't have enough time to take pics of all the rooms and the creepy staircases but it's enough to get a good idea of what middle school was like for me.

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midnight21
23 May 2016 @ 07:52 pm
Shit to do this week:

*Survive my dental appointment.
* Do some laundry
*Ink some drawings and scan them
*Go through my music in my mp3 player and add what I want and don't want
*Charge my camera battery for saturday (going to the middle school for the last time)
*Pack for Memorial Day weekend
*Go for walks as much as I can
*Visit my grandparent's grave if I can this weekend

I think that's pretty much all.
 
 
 
midnight21
08 April 2016 @ 12:56 am
it will be four years ago next month since I moved from my old place at Mainview Apartments to my current place.  I enjoyed living here for the most part, despite the fact I can no longer have a cat and I suffered a pipe break in the wall last summer which took two months to get fixed.  For now, I will make a post of just my bedroom. I will make another post of my entire apartment in May.

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midnight21
07 October 2015 @ 03:42 pm
So I found out that my half brother Kurt had joined the Delta chi fraternity, which freaked me out a bit. Looking at the symbolism alone I can tell that the frat is loosely associated with the free masons and the illuminati and jeremy confirmed my suspicions by  saying it was true after we both researched it last night. I don't know what to think to be honest. I know that he joined it thinking he's doing a good thing by helping cancer patients, but he's young and naive...  completely unaware of what really goes on with these frats and secret societies. If he does wake up and leave, it might be too late already because he signed a contract with his own blood. Then came the nightmare i had last night.

I dreamt that my brother graduated from the frat and was on the verge of becoming a 33rd degree mason. In order to achieve that, he has to sacrifice someone he loved and cared about so naturally, he picked me. After walking down a path made with checker board tiles, I found myself laying on this black altar staring up at a marble ceiling. Then a dark priest began his ceremony. My brother mouthed I'm so sorry Lisa as I felt the knife go into my  neck and my blood began to spill. Then I felt myself dying.

I woke up into another realm of subconscioiousness and realized I was in heaven looking down at what's going on around me. My brother looked upset as the priest conclulded the satanic ritual but he wasn't allowed to show any real grief or emotion until he got home. As the years go by, he became rich in his computer business and lived a successful life like Bill Gates and Steve Jobs, but he wasn't truly happy. In order to keep stepping up in the business world, he  needed to keep handing over sacrifices. The next one was my mother who neither of us had much feeling for anymore. When she died, I saw her spirit go straight into hell and I found myself sobbing hysterically. "Why"? I kept asking myself repeatedly. "Why?!"  An angel approached me then told me at my mother was a narcissist and she never repented for her sins or showed any kind of remorse for her actions so God had no choice but to send her there and she'll burn for eternity. I should be glad that she's finally paying for her crimes but I felt my heart crack then shatter into a billion little pieces.

"But I asked God to have mercy on her..." I said. I heard myself talk for the first time and realized I had a normal voice like everyone else instead of a speech impediment, but I was grieving for my family and couldn't feel joy for being free from it. "Why didn't he do it?"

"It was the right thing to do but her crimes against you,  your dad and the rest of her family is just too severe to spare her... I'm sorry. "

"If it was God's will then I understand... but how did I get into heaven?

"You repented. You believed and had faith. You put a lot of effort into trying to forgive those who wronged you.  So we sent you here.

I nodded and continue to watch numbly as my brother began to wake up and left the free masons, asking God for help. I couldn't help but smile as he turned away from it but he was about to become the next victim... then I woke up.

Maybe watching that documentary about free mason history last night wasn't such a good idea....
 
 
midnight21
10 May 2015 @ 10:03 am
How do you feel about e-readers? Would you rather read an actual, physical book? Why do you prefer one over the other?
i'm an avid book reader and collector but i actually want a nook or something. they may come in handy if I go on vacation or something and the prices are a little cheaper than an actual book. but right now i want an ipad in the near future...
 
 
midnight21
19 February 2015 @ 05:58 pm
Are you generally a good judge of character? What's a time you felt you had a good sense of someone, only to have it turn out you were completely wrong?
My ex friend.... I thought she was a really nice person and someone I can relate to but then she became very controlling of me and I found out that she had to have everything her way. What I felt about anything never mattered to her and everything went downhill from there.... that's when I learned about narcissistic abuse which saved me from my mother.
 
 
midnight21
06 February 2015 @ 01:02 am

I got bored tonight and started browsing at people's names in urban dictionary then i came across mine. There was a lot of negativity being said about my name, but I think this one describes me best:


Lisa
Lisa is funny, smart, and artsy. She's a hopeless romantic and can be just a little clingy. She's the type of girl who doesn't attend that kickin' party, but comes over to help clean up after everyone leaves. Lisa is shy around new people, especially boys older than her, but is capable of getting along with any person, anytime. Lisa is the girl who WANTS a boy that will make her laugh and forget the world, but NEEDS a boy who can give her stability and undying love. She's into poetry and other forms of the written word, and loves to write, herself. Art is an escape for her, as she's prone to periods of depression, where she may consider suicide. She's modest, and doesn't like to be overly critical of others. A Lisa is sensitive, and she hates to be yelled at.

1: Hey, who's that pretty little wallflower over there reading?

2: Oh, that's Lisa.
 
 
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